Dear Diary

October 3, 2006

Why does this always happen to me?  Becky told me today that she doesn't want to hang around me anymore.  Something about a rumor she heard.  I've never done anything to hurt her, or anyone.  She was my best friend.  What am I going to do without her?  I just started at Icarus Prep and being a sophomore in high school is hard enough without having some random rumor steal all your friends.  Not that I've really had all that many.  They always run after a while.  All I am is nice...isn't that what people want in a friend?

We had so much fun all the time!  After all those girls nights and painted nails you'd think she'd believe me over a rumor, or at least tell me what the rumor was.  No.  I wonder who is spreading these rumors.  Why won't anyone trust me?

Last week I took cookies to Joanna because I heard she was sick.  We used to be friends in junior high until one day she stopped answering my calls and decided to give me the silent treatment at school.  Everybody sided with her, naturally, because there's something about me that just repels people.  Something I can't see.

I asked Ben yesterday if there was something wrong with me.  He's one of the only friends who's stuck with me all through growing up, and I knew he'd tell it to me straight.  He said some girls say I come off fake sometimes.  I asked him if he thought so and he was quick to say, "Of course not."  See, he's super nice, but people love him.  Maybe guys are allowed to be nice but girls aren't.  That's ridiculous.

Well, Lizzy needs some help with homework and that's what big sisters are for.  I'll keep you posted.
Amber